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Jennifer E. Thomas
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Waterfalls
It's almost like there are these periods where our relationship is smooth and steady, and then there are times when it's like standing on the edge of this gorgeous, wonderful waterfall and just letting yourself drop, knowing that there's a safe pool of water ready to catch you at bottom. You take the plunge and you're in wayyyy over your head, but oh man, it's exhilarating, it's breathtaking, it's just incredible and you feel better than you ever have before and the water is cool and refreshing and exactly what you needed.

Sam is my waterfall.

- LJ entry from 8/2005





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General blahs

Failed at quitting smoking. Starting fresh tomorrow.

I have the general BLAHs today. I keep feeling like I'm wasting my life sitting here on my ass doing absolutely not one thing of value to anybody. And before you tell me I'm so awesome for being a mom, dudes, I do NOTHING. I can't wash their clothes, cook their meals, clean the house. All I can do is yell at them to do their homework, do their chores, and bathe and brush their teeth. Sorry, but that's not of value.

I didn't get into TWU, lack of transcripts and no SAT scores, so ya know. And even if I had, how would I get there? I can't drive, I will never be able to drive, and I can't count on Sam not having to work when I have to be in school.

I've discovered I no longer enjoy working in clay. It hurts my hands. So, meh.

So. General FEH feeling.

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Borderline symptom of the day: blah
Comments

So, you fell off the wagon today. Dust yourself off, cut yourself some slack (congratulations, you're human), and start over.

I know kind of how you feel about seeming to waste your life. I often feel that way too.

That's not failing. It's just a speed bump. You'll be back on track tomorrow!

Living the Wesleyan way means you can fall off and rise back, over and over--and God's with you all the way-- supporting you on ward, or calling you out of the morass....

*Failed at quitting smoking. Starting fresh tomorrow.

... I keep feeling like I'm wasting my life sitting here on my ass doing absolutely not one thing of value to anybody.


I've discovered I no longer enjoy working in clay. It hurts my hands. So, meh.

So. General FEH feeling.*

Sorry, but you're not a failure. Smoking a few cigarettes doesnt make you a failure. The best advice I ever got was this: "Consider it a vegetable and move on."

Can't work in clay anymore? Me either, arthritis prevents it. That does not make me or you a failure. You can still tap your creativity in other ways.

Have a pity party tonight. It's okay. You get a do-over tomorrow.

Keep at it! Smoking is a tough one to beat but we believe in you :)