Jennifer E. Thomas (j3nny3lf) wrote,
Jennifer E. Thomas
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God I love this woman's music

I'm sitting here listening to Alanis Morissette, and you know, the fact that her music was the freaking SOUNDTRACK of my second marriage, the entire relationship damn near from the day we met until he waltzed out the door with the dog really should have told me something, it really should have.

But we live and we learn, right? What's good is what I have NOW, that big fuzzy man in the queen size bed about four feet from me right now. And what I had then? That was insanity, that was unhealthy, that was abusive and horrible and thank the Lord it's over.

Thank you, Alanis, for giving the music that I was deaf to the real message of at the time. :)



How 'bout getting off of these antibiotics
How 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up
How 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
How 'bout that ever elusive kudo

Thank you india
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How 'bout me not blaming you for everything
How 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
How 'bout how good it feels to finaly forgive you
How 'bout grieving it all one at a time

Thank you india
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it
Was the moment I touched down

How 'bout no longer being masochistic
How 'bout remembering your divinity
How 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How 'bout not equating death with stopping

Thank you india
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence
Tags: music, the ugly past
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