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Jennifer E. Thomas
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It's almost like there are these periods where our relationship is smooth and steady, and then there are times when it's like standing on the edge of this gorgeous, wonderful waterfall and just letting yourself drop, knowing that there's a safe pool of water ready to catch you at bottom. You take the plunge and you're in wayyyy over your head, but oh man, it's exhilarating, it's breathtaking, it's just incredible and you feel better than you ever have before and the water is cool and refreshing and exactly what you needed.

Sam is my waterfall.

- LJ entry from 8/2005


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Jenn went crazy again...

I got home late this morning from spending five days on the psych ward.

All of the hassles with Sean finally got to me, and my meds needed adjusting anyways, so it was time to check in for a short stay and ensure my stability. I have a feeling this will happen off and on over the rest of my life.

Apparently they determined during my stay that I am NOT bipolar. I have Major Depressive Disorder, just like Sam does, and, of course, I'm still Borderline. Just like Sam. His and Hers Mental Illnesses! Yeehaw! ;)

Seriously, though, I feel a lot better. I see bright things on the horizon again instead of doom and gloom, woe and death. This is a Good Thing .

Sorry to anybody who was worried, this is kind of the way it is with a mentally ill friend. :)

Where the hell am I?: HOME HOME HOME!
Borderline symptom of the day: optimisticoptimistic

The bipolar diagnosis was given to me about four years ago by a doctor who had seen me one time when she made said diagnosis.

The doctor who changed the diagnosis is my regular psychiatrist whom I have been seeing for about a year now. He has been saying for a while that he wasn't too sure about the bipolar diagnosis, and that he would have me under close observation should I need hospitalization again.

So I spent five days being watched like a hawk during my waking hours, and yesterday before he released me he said that he felt that I have MDD, not BPAD, and that my Borderline Personality Disorder complicates that just enough that somebody who has seen me only on monthly or so office visits could easily confuse that combination with Bipolar II. (Which was my diagnosis, very low lows, not so high manias).

Anyways, that's how he sorted that out. I'm pretty sure he's right. Either way, the treatment is pretty much the same.