Failed at quitting smoking. Starting fresh tomorrow.
I have the general BLAHs today. I keep feeling like I'm wasting my life sitting here on my ass doing absolutely not one thing of value to anybody. And before you tell me I'm so awesome for being a mom, dudes, I do NOTHING. I can't wash their clothes, cook their meals, clean the house. All I can do is yell at them to do their homework, do their chores, and bathe and brush their teeth. Sorry, but that's not of value.
I didn't get into TWU, lack of transcripts and no SAT scores, so ya know. And even if I had, how would I get there? I can't drive, I will never be able to drive, and I can't count on Sam not having to work when I have to be in school.
I've discovered I no longer enjoy working in clay. It hurts my hands. So, meh.
So. General FEH feeling.
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Linkage of note
Waterfalls
It's almost like there are these periods where our relationship is smooth and steady, and then there are times when it's like standing on the edge of this gorgeous, wonderful waterfall and just letting yourself drop, knowing that there's a safe pool of water ready to catch you at bottom. You take the plunge and you're in wayyyy over your head, but oh man, it's exhilarating, it's breathtaking, it's just incredible and you feel better than you ever have before and the water is cool and refreshing and exactly what you needed.
Sam is my waterfall. - LJ entry from 8/2005
December 2017
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General blahs
*Failed at quitting smoking. Starting fresh tomorrow. |
