Why? - Bubbly Backwash

It's almost like there are these periods where our relationship is smooth and steady, and then there are times when it's like standing on the edge of this gorgeous, wonderful waterfall and just letting yourself drop, knowing that there's a safe pool of water ready to catch you at bottom. You take the plunge and you're in wayyyy over your head, but oh man, it's exhilarating, it's breathtaking, it's just incredible and you feel better than you ever have before and the water is cool and refreshing and exactly what you needed.

Sam is my waterfall.

- LJ entry from 8/2005

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j3nny3lf

6/26/09 02:24 pm

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Why?

Why am I missing my father so much today? I went from talking with my friend Tracey about what an utter putz former WBCN disc jockey Charles Laquidera was/is, to thinking about my father and wishing I knew more about him as a person.

I was seventeen when he died. I was just beginning to realize that he was pretty smart, pretty cool, and a person other than just Daddy.

I never really got a chance to know him, and that bugs the hell out of me.

Cancer is a bitch.

Tags: dad

Borderline symptom of the day:

melancholy

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glinda_w

2009-06-26 08:06 pm (UTC)

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Yeah. My father died when I was 19. All the things I never got to *talk* to him about, person to person rather than parent to child. Especially SF&F, 'cause I started reading it from a couple of the magazines he subscribed to, when I was about 5. And other things.

j3nny3lf

2009-06-26 08:10 pm (UTC)

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Yeah. Exactly.

I feel like something very rare and precious was stolen from me. :\

pagawne

2009-06-26 08:38 pm (UTC)

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I can go along for days and sometimes weeks, and then it turns around and hits like a board in the back of the head, I'll never be able to talk to my Dad again. He died 31 October 2001, Mom 08 June 2008. I'll be looking up some trivia point and think to ask her and then remember I no longer can.

hitchhiker

2009-06-26 11:09 pm (UTC)

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*hug*

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