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It's almost like there are these periods where our relationship is smooth and steady, and then there are times when it's like standing on the edge of this gorgeous, wonderful waterfall and just letting yourself drop, knowing that there's a safe pool of water ready to catch you at bottom. You take the plunge and you're in wayyyy over your head, but oh man, it's exhilarating, it's breathtaking, it's just incredible and you feel better than you ever have before and the water is cool and refreshing and exactly what you needed.

Sam is my waterfall.

- LJ entry from 8/2005


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So, day before yesterday was our fifth wedding anniversary. Or our eleven day anniversary if you count from the renewal. :)

Five years have gone by so fast. When I met Sam, Amy was 13 years old and in junior high school. Now she's graduated high school and is well started in college.

Sean was eleven years old. Ian was about to turn nine, and Evan was only six. Now Sean is sixteen, Ian fourteen, and my baby Evan is eleven. The two older ones are very deep baritones.

Sam was working on his Master's degree at UTSA. He's very close to starting his doctoral dissertation now at UNT.

And when I met this wonderful man, I was freshly out of the psychiatric ward after a very serious suicide attempt following the explosion of my then marriage. I saw nothing worth living for, not even my beloved little girl, my beloved big girl, or my grandchildren. I had no hope, no faith, no dreams.

I remember once, early on, Sam asking me about my dreams, what did I want to do with my life.. and I burst into tears, because I had none.

Now? Now I have dreams. To see my kids grow up, become productive and happy adults with families of their own. To see my husband get that PhD. To see myself do.. I'm still not sure what, but there's something out there for me to do once Sam is settled in a job and the kids are needing less of me. I am unsure yet as to what it is, but when I see it, I'll recognize it and grab it.

And Sam and I?

We're solid. Happy. Together. Five years, and it only feels like eleven days have passed.

And that's the best part.

Originally posted on http://j3nny3lf.dreamwidth.org - but you can comment either here or there. I prefer HERE!

Borderline symptom of the day: happyhappy

Happy Anniversary. May there be many, many more years for you and Sam.

BTW, two anniversaries can be really neat.

And y'all so awesome I wish I had a quick way to show you to people and say, "See? Here! This is what grace and functionality look like! Surprise!"

Happy Anniversary!

what dreams may come...

....JennJenn: I always thought you should write with the intention of publishing. I have always found you to be articulate, witty & smart. If you're "bored" I know of an epublisher accepting submissions...you could write romance in your sleep (can u just hear Sonya ranting *giggling* ) mwahhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Re: what dreams may come...

I should write a romance novel about Sonya. :D

Re: what dreams may come...

LeeLee! Can you point me to that epublisher? I wanna submit some stuff! :D